Wholly cow. Sonship and being an heir of Christ has never meant so much to me until today.When we were crucified with Christ, we took on a brand new citizenship. We became SONS of God. This includes the ladies too! We are not only the "children" of God but the Sons of God!
Back in the days the inheritance was given to the sons - not the women. Therefore to say that men and women will be Sons of God that means we will inherit the father's inheritance. People in Rome and people whom Jesus were talking to understood this.
Remember that we were saved by grace through faith in Christ. This is something we cannot ever lose; however you can tell by whether you are or are not saved. What kind of fruits are you bearing? Are you bearing what the Father would bear. We MUST be resembling the Father if we have any part of him. When Jesus was talking about the beatitudes, he was not saying only if you are this or that. From verses 3-10 he was building up to verse 11. You must be all of these things if you are going to keep reading up to verse 11. Remember if we are going to receive all the good things that belonged to the Father we will also receive the negative things. We need to expect persecution if we are truly his sons. Yes God calls us to be peacemakers because He was the ultimate peacemaker; however being a peacemaker means that you will need to stand firm through persecution because we are called to reconcile others to God like God reconciled us back to him. We're not going to be liked BUT REMEMBER YOU AND I are the Sons/heirs of Christ.
We follow the King of Kings. The LORD of Lords. The alpha and the omega. We will be glorified like Christ. We will be risen like Christ. We will be receiving our new heavenly bodies. We will one day be at a place where He will wipe every tear from ours eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain. Bank on his promises. Find his promises in the scriptures!
My goodness this sonship is an amazing thing.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
My King - he is the mighty one
Exodus 19:4 'You yourselves have seen what I did to Egypt, and how I carried you on eagles' wings and brought you to myself. 5 Now if you obey me fully and keep my covenant, then out of all nations you will be my treasured possession. Although the whole earth is mine, 6 you [a] will be for me a kingdom of priests and a holy nation.'
Read the whole chapter. I just thought these verses are key. I shared my struggle with school with Pittuur and a few folks today. I shared with Shelt last night just about the struggle. I've finally shared my struggles and had some prayers over these things.
Today I am reminded of how great my King is. I need to stop looking around at the stats. Statistics say a lot. There is a warrant behind many of the claims the stats show; however NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR GOD.
I follow the King Almighty, I follow the one who is the first one in history to rise from the grave, and 3 days later ascended into the throne of the father.
Neither life nor death or anything of this world shall scare me.
"7(I) Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where(J) shall I flee from your presence?
8(K) If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
(L) If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
9If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10even there your hand shall(M) lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.
11If I say,(N) "Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,"
12(O) even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you."
There is so much to learn from the Nation of Israel. The lesson is to KEEP OUR EYES on our King. We cannot look at other nations and say we want what they have. Our God is in charge.. Hang in there even when it gets tough. I need to say I dont think I have ever been this stressed out in my life before :p but I must say my relationship with God has gone to where it has never gone before..
GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME..
Read the whole chapter. I just thought these verses are key. I shared my struggle with school with Pittuur and a few folks today. I shared with Shelt last night just about the struggle. I've finally shared my struggles and had some prayers over these things.
Today I am reminded of how great my King is. I need to stop looking around at the stats. Statistics say a lot. There is a warrant behind many of the claims the stats show; however NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR GOD.
I follow the King Almighty, I follow the one who is the first one in history to rise from the grave, and 3 days later ascended into the throne of the father.
Neither life nor death or anything of this world shall scare me.
"7(I) Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where(J) shall I flee from your presence?
8(K) If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
(L) If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
9If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10even there your hand shall(M) lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.
11If I say,(N) "Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,"
12(O) even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you."
There is so much to learn from the Nation of Israel. The lesson is to KEEP OUR EYES on our King. We cannot look at other nations and say we want what they have. Our God is in charge.. Hang in there even when it gets tough. I need to say I dont think I have ever been this stressed out in my life before :p but I must say my relationship with God has gone to where it has never gone before..
GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME..
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Sonday
I've failed to write in my blog.. Recently
It's not a big deal. Its 3:15 in the afternoon and I am having AN AMAZING DAY. This whole day has seriously been all about Jesus and me. I went to church this morning and the holy spirit definitely convicted me.
We went over Genesis 32 where Jacob wresltes with God and God changes his name to Israel. Today's message was about Jesus is the true and better Jacob..
Jacob all his life has been going about life every wrong way possible. He had forgotten how good God is to those who love him, he had forgotten how good God was to his forefathers. God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
His lesson today for me is that before I can walk obediently to God submitting to his will, I need to DROP each and every thing in my life that I am wrestling with God about.
I need to drop my worries about getting into the college of nursing. I need to seek first the kingdom of God.. for the will of the Lord to become prevalent in my life..
Seriously this Sonday just continues to become better. The presence of God is just so HUGE right now. I am just sitting in my room watching a few youtube videos, studying, listening to some worship music.
Why is it so amazing? It's because the gospel does not get old. I am just reminded that the slaughter of the son of God the perfect one was crucified so that his righteousness could become mine. That man, that God, that Christ Jesus died and on the third day ascended into right hand of his father. For the first time in history, a man walked up to the doors of heaven and cried out, "Lift up your heads, O you gates; be lifted up, you ancient doors, that the King of glory may come in.
The heavens become utterly shocked in silence and wonder. A brave one shouts out
"Who is this King of glory?" Who dare speaks to these doors. No man has ever came near these doors. "Who is this King of glory?" The ONE who has saved us answers
The LORD strong and mighty, the LORD mighty in battle."Lift up your heads, O you gates; lift them up, you ancient doors, that the King of glory may come in."
Then for the first time his history, these gates finally open up for a man. The man the Christ walks through those doors. The angels prostrate and fall, hail the power of Jesus' name. They crown him Lord of all with many crowns. The Lamb finally returns to the throne. Walking up to his father BOLD with his rights, climbing the steps of his throne that makes Solomon's throne look like paper matte. He sits down without asking for permission. Looks at his Father as an affirmation and tells him Father it is finished. The Father says "Indeed".
Go watch Jesus Died! - Paul Washer.. Anyhoo...
GOD IS GLORIOUS..
This Sonday with Jesus was AMAZING.
It's not a big deal. Its 3:15 in the afternoon and I am having AN AMAZING DAY. This whole day has seriously been all about Jesus and me. I went to church this morning and the holy spirit definitely convicted me.
We went over Genesis 32 where Jacob wresltes with God and God changes his name to Israel. Today's message was about Jesus is the true and better Jacob..
Jacob all his life has been going about life every wrong way possible. He had forgotten how good God is to those who love him, he had forgotten how good God was to his forefathers. God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
His lesson today for me is that before I can walk obediently to God submitting to his will, I need to DROP each and every thing in my life that I am wrestling with God about.
I need to drop my worries about getting into the college of nursing. I need to seek first the kingdom of God.. for the will of the Lord to become prevalent in my life..
Seriously this Sonday just continues to become better. The presence of God is just so HUGE right now. I am just sitting in my room watching a few youtube videos, studying, listening to some worship music.
Why is it so amazing? It's because the gospel does not get old. I am just reminded that the slaughter of the son of God the perfect one was crucified so that his righteousness could become mine. That man, that God, that Christ Jesus died and on the third day ascended into right hand of his father. For the first time in history, a man walked up to the doors of heaven and cried out, "Lift up your heads, O you gates; be lifted up, you ancient doors, that the King of glory may come in.
The heavens become utterly shocked in silence and wonder. A brave one shouts out
"Who is this King of glory?" Who dare speaks to these doors. No man has ever came near these doors. "Who is this King of glory?" The ONE who has saved us answers
The LORD strong and mighty, the LORD mighty in battle."Lift up your heads, O you gates; lift them up, you ancient doors, that the King of glory may come in."
Then for the first time his history, these gates finally open up for a man. The man the Christ walks through those doors. The angels prostrate and fall, hail the power of Jesus' name. They crown him Lord of all with many crowns. The Lamb finally returns to the throne. Walking up to his father BOLD with his rights, climbing the steps of his throne that makes Solomon's throne look like paper matte. He sits down without asking for permission. Looks at his Father as an affirmation and tells him Father it is finished. The Father says "Indeed".
Go watch Jesus Died! - Paul Washer.. Anyhoo...
GOD IS GLORIOUS..
This Sonday with Jesus was AMAZING.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
1 Corinthians 7
Just thinking there is so much I need to learn. Friday night (tonight) I spent the night with my friend. He's very new to the faith and does not know much of the bible whatsoever. We spent the whole night talking about the goodness of God and how God saved us. We watched this video from a psycho televangelist named Jack Van Impe? I just shared my thoughts on how this really isn't right.
We ended up talking about sex,sexual immorality, living above reproach and all those good things the Lord has in stored for us. I was reading 1 corinthians 7 and now I am more lost than ever about some of these things the bible has to say about sex and marriage.
In this passage Paul does not say too many thus says the Lord. He explicitly says that he thinks and such and such.
I dont know what to think of that..
Whats the point of my post? I really don't know. I just want to put it out there now I want to know the meaning and intent for sex and marriage. I am glad I am wrestling with this because if I want to get in a relationship than I better be grounded in biblical sex and marriage.
We ended up talking about sex,sexual immorality, living above reproach and all those good things the Lord has in stored for us. I was reading 1 corinthians 7 and now I am more lost than ever about some of these things the bible has to say about sex and marriage.
In this passage Paul does not say too many thus says the Lord. He explicitly says that he thinks and such and such.
I dont know what to think of that..
Whats the point of my post? I really don't know. I just want to put it out there now I want to know the meaning and intent for sex and marriage. I am glad I am wrestling with this because if I want to get in a relationship than I better be grounded in biblical sex and marriage.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
My golden calf....
1 When the people saw that Moses was so long in coming down from the mountain, they gathered around Aaron and said, "Come, make us gods [a] who will go before us. As for this fellow Moses who brought us up out of Egypt, we don't know what has happened to him."
2 Aaron answered them, "Take off the gold earrings that your wives, your sons and your daughters are wearing, and bring them to me." 3 So all the people took off their earrings and brought them to Aaron. 4 He took what they handed him and made it into an idol cast in the shape of a calf, fashioning it with a tool. Then they said, "These are your gods, [b] O Israel, who brought you up out of Egypt."
5 When Aaron saw this, he built an altar in front of the calf and announced, "Tomorrow there will be a festival to the LORD." 6 So the next day the people rose early and sacrificed burnt offerings and presented fellowship offerings. [c] Afterward they sat down to eat and drink and got up to indulge in revelry.
7 Then the LORD said to Moses, "Go down, because your people, whom you brought up out of Egypt, have become corrupt. 8 They have been quick to turn away from what I commanded them and have made themselves an idol cast in the shape of a calf. They have bowed down to it and sacrificed to it and have said, 'These are your gods, O Israel, who brought you up out of Egypt.'
9 "I have seen these people," the LORD said to Moses, "and they are a stiff-necked people. 10 Now leave me alone so that my anger may burn against them and that I may destroy them. Then I will make you into a great nation."
11 But Moses sought the favor of the LORD his God. "O LORD," he said, "why should your anger burn against your people, whom you brought out of Egypt with great power and a mighty hand? 12 Why should the Egyptians say, 'It was with evil intent that he brought them out, to kill them in the mountains and to wipe them off the face of the earth'? Turn from your fierce anger; relent and do not bring disaster on your people. 13 Remember your servants Abraham, Isaac and Israel, to whom you swore by your own self: 'I will make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and I will give your descendants all this land I promised them, and it will be their inheritance forever.' " 14 Then the LORD relented and did not bring on his people the disaster he had threatened.
Anyone who reads this will probably have a "The Nerve!", "Woooooooooooooow", and "Stuuuuuuuuuuuuuuupid" reaction because DUDE come on God has just brought you out of egypt, God gave Abraham a son when he shouldn't even be able to have a baby, God provided with Joseph, God had been good to Abaraham and his descendants. (Manna & quail..... etc!)
But wait a moment! We are exactly like them! I know I am.. From my last post look at the prayer requests I have lifted up to him! Even with all those answered prayers there are times when I think that some of those prayers were coincidental. Even with so many answered prayers I still have such crazy materialism!
So what? I deserve death like the Isrealites. Luckily for them Moses was a type of Christ, he interceded for those people when God wanted to smite them. So what? God's mercy IS TOO MUCH! He knew all along that his people was going to fail and he would still continue to show his mercy and love!
I deserved death but Christ has imputed his righteousness onto me. He has interceded to the father for my sakes..
God is GOOD all the time. Christ is enough and every idol in my life needs to be burned away.
2 Aaron answered them, "Take off the gold earrings that your wives, your sons and your daughters are wearing, and bring them to me." 3 So all the people took off their earrings and brought them to Aaron. 4 He took what they handed him and made it into an idol cast in the shape of a calf, fashioning it with a tool. Then they said, "These are your gods, [b] O Israel, who brought you up out of Egypt."
5 When Aaron saw this, he built an altar in front of the calf and announced, "Tomorrow there will be a festival to the LORD." 6 So the next day the people rose early and sacrificed burnt offerings and presented fellowship offerings. [c] Afterward they sat down to eat and drink and got up to indulge in revelry.
7 Then the LORD said to Moses, "Go down, because your people, whom you brought up out of Egypt, have become corrupt. 8 They have been quick to turn away from what I commanded them and have made themselves an idol cast in the shape of a calf. They have bowed down to it and sacrificed to it and have said, 'These are your gods, O Israel, who brought you up out of Egypt.'
9 "I have seen these people," the LORD said to Moses, "and they are a stiff-necked people. 10 Now leave me alone so that my anger may burn against them and that I may destroy them. Then I will make you into a great nation."
11 But Moses sought the favor of the LORD his God. "O LORD," he said, "why should your anger burn against your people, whom you brought out of Egypt with great power and a mighty hand? 12 Why should the Egyptians say, 'It was with evil intent that he brought them out, to kill them in the mountains and to wipe them off the face of the earth'? Turn from your fierce anger; relent and do not bring disaster on your people. 13 Remember your servants Abraham, Isaac and Israel, to whom you swore by your own self: 'I will make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and I will give your descendants all this land I promised them, and it will be their inheritance forever.' " 14 Then the LORD relented and did not bring on his people the disaster he had threatened.
Anyone who reads this will probably have a "The Nerve!", "Woooooooooooooow", and "Stuuuuuuuuuuuuuuupid" reaction because DUDE come on God has just brought you out of egypt, God gave Abraham a son when he shouldn't even be able to have a baby, God provided with Joseph, God had been good to Abaraham and his descendants. (Manna & quail..... etc!)
But wait a moment! We are exactly like them! I know I am.. From my last post look at the prayer requests I have lifted up to him! Even with all those answered prayers there are times when I think that some of those prayers were coincidental. Even with so many answered prayers I still have such crazy materialism!
So what? I deserve death like the Isrealites. Luckily for them Moses was a type of Christ, he interceded for those people when God wanted to smite them. So what? God's mercy IS TOO MUCH! He knew all along that his people was going to fail and he would still continue to show his mercy and love!
I deserved death but Christ has imputed his righteousness onto me. He has interceded to the father for my sakes..
God is GOOD all the time. Christ is enough and every idol in my life needs to be burned away.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Lamentations 3 - Though He Slay Me, Yet Will I Trust in Him
I have never really touched this book before (Lamentations). Today (Monday) I could not stop thinking about Tuesday - My day in court to contest my ticket. I have never been to court before and it is a bit nerve racking. I really don't want to pay the fine - the worst thing would be if my insurance finds out because my rates would increase.
As I continue to blog each day, I find that I encounter more and more and more humble pie. During those days when I did not seek God - I felt like I barely encountered humble pie.
I do not believe in the prosperity gospel. I don't believe that God does not bless me because I am not doing enough of something. I believe that God loves me and knows what he is doing as the Sovereign King of the University.
I cannot put it better than Matthew Henry so I will copy and paste his commentary.
Commentary on Lamentations 3:1-20
(Read Lamentations 3:1-20)
The prophet relates the more gloomy and discouraging part of his experience, and how he found support and relief. In the time of his trial the Lord had become terrible to him. It was an affliction that was misery itself; for sin makes the cup of affliction a bitter cup. The struggle between unbelief and faith is often very severe. But the weakest believer is wrong, if he thinks that his strength and hope are perished from the Lord.
Commentary on Lamentations 3:21-36
(Read Lamentations 3:21-36)
Having stated his distress and temptation, the prophet shows how he was raised above it. Bad as things are, it is owing to the mercy of God that they are not worse. We should observe what makes for us, as well as what is against us. God's compassions fail not; of this we have fresh instances every morning. Portions on earth are perishing things, but God is a portion for ever. It is our duty, and will be our comfort and satisfaction, to hope and quietly to wait for the salvation of the Lord. Afflictions do and will work very much for good: many have found it good to bear this yoke in their youth; it has made many humble and serious, and has weaned them from the world, who otherwise would have been proud and unruly. If tribulation work patience, that patience will work experience, and that experience a hope that makes not ashamed. Due thoughts of the evil of sin, and of our own sinfulness, will convince us that it is of the Lord's mercies we are not consumed. If we cannot say with unwavering voice, The Lord is my portion; may we not say, I desire to have Him for my portion and salvation, and in his word do I hope? Happy shall we be, if we learn to receive affliction as laid upon us by the hand of God.
Commentary on Lamentations 3:37-41
(Read Lamentations 3:37-41)
While there is life there is hope; and instead of complaining that things are bad, we should encourage ourselves with the hope they will be better. We are sinful men, and what we complain of, is far less than our sins deserve. We should complain to God, and not of him. We are apt, in times of calamity, to reflect on other people's ways, and blame them; but our duty is to search and try our own ways, that we may turn from evil to God. Our hearts must go with our prayers. If inward impressions do not answer to outward expressions, we mock God, and deceive ourselves.
Commentary on Lamentations 3:42-54
(Read Lamentations 3:42-54)
The more the prophet looked on the desolations, the more he was grieved. Here is one word of comfort. While they continued weeping, they continued waiting; and neither did nor would expect relief and succour from any but the Lord.
Commentary on Lamentations 3:55-66
(Read Lamentations 3:55-66)
Faith comes off conqueror, for in these verses the prophet concludes with some comfort. Prayer is the breath of the new man, drawing in the air of mercy in petitions, and returning it in praises; it proves and maintains the spiritual life. He silenced their fears, and quieted their spirits. Thou saidst, Fear not. This was the language of God's grace, by the witness of his Spirit with their spirits. And what are all our sorrows, compared with those of the Redeemer? He will deliver his people from every trouble, and revive his church from every persecution. He will save believers with everlasting salvation, while his enemies perish with everlasting destruction.
Surely God is good. I cannot just expect to receive the best of everything everytime. I must praise him while in the storm. His mercies are new each day and they are more than enough. The LORD is my portion forever and will always be sufficient.
Thinking back about some of the trials I faced in college - God came through faithful not for my sakes but because first he is faithful to his own name and character.
- ILSTU Housing which would've have forced me to pay at least $9,000 extra.
- Meeting new friends at IlSTU
- Struggle with purity
- Horrible grades 1st semester GPA of 2.33? to a GPA of 3.54? 2nd semester last year. I thought I was just meant to be a failure in college
- To stay with the Encounter ministry or not
- To find a church I can call home down here at school
- A few very faithful men of God
- Blossoming relationships with friends and especially the family
- Fixing that car this weekend
- Breaking free from materialistic addiction
- A way to get fed spirtually
These were just things that came off the top of my head that I was really anxious and worried about for a while down here at the ILSTU. Hopefully I can add on to that list tomrorow when I go to court.
In the future, I hope to be able to say that God was GLORIOUS in the major I decided to pursue and got into here at the ILSTU. Right now I feel like a whore - by wanting to leave my bridgegroom (Christ. I feel like those things in the past where God answered my prayers - those things were just coincidental.
Christ - I do not want to be unfaithful. I want to trust in your goodness. I want to trust that you know what you are doing. Please remove this unfaithfulness that is in my heart and my soul. I have a desire to rid my mind of those thoughts and feelings. I want to be able to cling onto you and your promises for me. In my heart I know you are good and you are faithful. In my heart I know you God work for the good of those who love you and who have been called according to your purpose.
Please pray this prayer for me also.
As I continue to blog each day, I find that I encounter more and more and more humble pie. During those days when I did not seek God - I felt like I barely encountered humble pie.
I do not believe in the prosperity gospel. I don't believe that God does not bless me because I am not doing enough of something. I believe that God loves me and knows what he is doing as the Sovereign King of the University.
I cannot put it better than Matthew Henry so I will copy and paste his commentary.
Commentary on Lamentations 3:1-20
(Read Lamentations 3:1-20)
The prophet relates the more gloomy and discouraging part of his experience, and how he found support and relief. In the time of his trial the Lord had become terrible to him. It was an affliction that was misery itself; for sin makes the cup of affliction a bitter cup. The struggle between unbelief and faith is often very severe. But the weakest believer is wrong, if he thinks that his strength and hope are perished from the Lord.
Commentary on Lamentations 3:21-36
(Read Lamentations 3:21-36)
Having stated his distress and temptation, the prophet shows how he was raised above it. Bad as things are, it is owing to the mercy of God that they are not worse. We should observe what makes for us, as well as what is against us. God's compassions fail not; of this we have fresh instances every morning. Portions on earth are perishing things, but God is a portion for ever. It is our duty, and will be our comfort and satisfaction, to hope and quietly to wait for the salvation of the Lord. Afflictions do and will work very much for good: many have found it good to bear this yoke in their youth; it has made many humble and serious, and has weaned them from the world, who otherwise would have been proud and unruly. If tribulation work patience, that patience will work experience, and that experience a hope that makes not ashamed. Due thoughts of the evil of sin, and of our own sinfulness, will convince us that it is of the Lord's mercies we are not consumed. If we cannot say with unwavering voice, The Lord is my portion; may we not say, I desire to have Him for my portion and salvation, and in his word do I hope? Happy shall we be, if we learn to receive affliction as laid upon us by the hand of God.
Commentary on Lamentations 3:37-41
(Read Lamentations 3:37-41)
While there is life there is hope; and instead of complaining that things are bad, we should encourage ourselves with the hope they will be better. We are sinful men, and what we complain of, is far less than our sins deserve. We should complain to God, and not of him. We are apt, in times of calamity, to reflect on other people's ways, and blame them; but our duty is to search and try our own ways, that we may turn from evil to God. Our hearts must go with our prayers. If inward impressions do not answer to outward expressions, we mock God, and deceive ourselves.
Commentary on Lamentations 3:42-54
(Read Lamentations 3:42-54)
The more the prophet looked on the desolations, the more he was grieved. Here is one word of comfort. While they continued weeping, they continued waiting; and neither did nor would expect relief and succour from any but the Lord.
Commentary on Lamentations 3:55-66
(Read Lamentations 3:55-66)
Faith comes off conqueror, for in these verses the prophet concludes with some comfort. Prayer is the breath of the new man, drawing in the air of mercy in petitions, and returning it in praises; it proves and maintains the spiritual life. He silenced their fears, and quieted their spirits. Thou saidst, Fear not. This was the language of God's grace, by the witness of his Spirit with their spirits. And what are all our sorrows, compared with those of the Redeemer? He will deliver his people from every trouble, and revive his church from every persecution. He will save believers with everlasting salvation, while his enemies perish with everlasting destruction.
Surely God is good. I cannot just expect to receive the best of everything everytime. I must praise him while in the storm. His mercies are new each day and they are more than enough. The LORD is my portion forever and will always be sufficient.
Thinking back about some of the trials I faced in college - God came through faithful not for my sakes but because first he is faithful to his own name and character.
- ILSTU Housing which would've have forced me to pay at least $9,000 extra.
- Meeting new friends at IlSTU
- Struggle with purity
- Horrible grades 1st semester GPA of 2.33? to a GPA of 3.54? 2nd semester last year. I thought I was just meant to be a failure in college
- To stay with the Encounter ministry or not
- To find a church I can call home down here at school
- A few very faithful men of God
- Blossoming relationships with friends and especially the family
- Fixing that car this weekend
- Breaking free from materialistic addiction
- A way to get fed spirtually
These were just things that came off the top of my head that I was really anxious and worried about for a while down here at the ILSTU. Hopefully I can add on to that list tomrorow when I go to court.
In the future, I hope to be able to say that God was GLORIOUS in the major I decided to pursue and got into here at the ILSTU. Right now I feel like a whore - by wanting to leave my bridgegroom (Christ. I feel like those things in the past where God answered my prayers - those things were just coincidental.
Christ - I do not want to be unfaithful. I want to trust in your goodness. I want to trust that you know what you are doing. Please remove this unfaithfulness that is in my heart and my soul. I have a desire to rid my mind of those thoughts and feelings. I want to be able to cling onto you and your promises for me. In my heart I know you are good and you are faithful. In my heart I know you God work for the good of those who love you and who have been called according to your purpose.
Please pray this prayer for me also.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Matthew 8
Wholly cow, I do not remmber eating so much humble pie in a week but hey that does not matter, I belong to the King of Kings!
My king has more compassion than anyone can ever have.
My king can heal just by the power of his word.
However, my king isn't very liked. The cost of following him will cost me my life. It will mean that nothing will be as important as following him faithfully and obediently.
My king calms the storms in the sea. My king does not fear any adversary.
Though theres so many problems in life, my king asks me to surrender all of my anxieties over to him. I will put my hope and trust in him for he is the king of kings. He is trustworthy, he is my refuge, my strength, and my Jesus.
My king has more compassion than anyone can ever have.
My king can heal just by the power of his word.
However, my king isn't very liked. The cost of following him will cost me my life. It will mean that nothing will be as important as following him faithfully and obediently.
My king calms the storms in the sea. My king does not fear any adversary.
Though theres so many problems in life, my king asks me to surrender all of my anxieties over to him. I will put my hope and trust in him for he is the king of kings. He is trustworthy, he is my refuge, my strength, and my Jesus.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Don't stop praising God
Just thought I would read the psalm about 46.
God was definitely good. Fixing my car only cost 10 bucks :( however, it was not fixed fixed. It was just looked at. I don't think the mechanic really knew the problem because he did not look into it!
Whatevers - Car runs and we did not need to fork out tons of money. The LORD is definitely good for he provides and watches over us. I praise Him not because he just provides but because he laid down his life for me!
I feel like once we stop praising God we forget how good he is. Throughout the Psalms it is these triumphs of God that make us remember He is out there. I know for me when I stop praising God or seeking God that is when things get much rougher.
I ate another piece of humble pie today. My car ate some new paint and it was my fault this time, but HEY that is not going to bring me down. God is in control of all things. I still have my life and my trials is what gives witness for the gospel to be made known!
8 God reigns over the nations;
God is seated on his holy throne.
9 The nobles of the nations assemble
as the people of the God of Abraham,
for the kings [b] of the earth belong to God;
he is greatly exalted.
Thanks God for sitting on your throne watching over all things!
Glory be to him forever
AMEN
God was definitely good. Fixing my car only cost 10 bucks :( however, it was not fixed fixed. It was just looked at. I don't think the mechanic really knew the problem because he did not look into it!
Whatevers - Car runs and we did not need to fork out tons of money. The LORD is definitely good for he provides and watches over us. I praise Him not because he just provides but because he laid down his life for me!
I feel like once we stop praising God we forget how good he is. Throughout the Psalms it is these triumphs of God that make us remember He is out there. I know for me when I stop praising God or seeking God that is when things get much rougher.
I ate another piece of humble pie today. My car ate some new paint and it was my fault this time, but HEY that is not going to bring me down. God is in control of all things. I still have my life and my trials is what gives witness for the gospel to be made known!
8 God reigns over the nations;
God is seated on his holy throne.
9 The nobles of the nations assemble
as the people of the God of Abraham,
for the kings [b] of the earth belong to God;
he is greatly exalted.
Thanks God for sitting on your throne watching over all things!
Glory be to him forever
AMEN
I need the gospel of Jesus Christ Himself eachday.
My goodness. Sometimes I wonder when Jesus will come back already. All the worries and problems of this world is really destroying me. It is either that it is supposed to be hard or it is because I am not living and thinking Kingdom minded.
There was no big problem today. Didn't do so well on last week's quiz in theater not the problem. I did another oil change tonight on the Corolla. Filter was almost impossible to take out. I used the hammer and the screw driver method and even though it allowed the filter to spin out 2-3 turns it was still not enough. We pretty much destroyed the filter by the time we got it out.
We had such a hard time getting it out, I kind of suspected something went wrong. I tried to put on the new filter but it did not want to go in. Took a look at the STUD that allows the filter to screw in and it looks messed up.
So right now the car cannot run because we cannot put oil in otherwise it would just leak out. What's the big problem? I need to be back at ISU by Sunday Morning 10am. I commute to school. Not a big deal, I can take the train back and have someone drive me to where I stay grab my stuff and stay with a friend on campus.
When I think about it it really is not that bad. Where it gets tough for me is that my parents are getting old. Money becomes an issue each day. They will not be happy that I screwed up something that needs to get fixed which will probably cost quite some money? I guess it really isn't that bad because it just means my parents are going to get fustrated at me. I am not going to die or anything....
Hmm. I am glad I am writing this through because it helps me think it through.
I must pray that God will provide a way. I must pray that these things will only make me cling to the cross and not uncling myself from the cross.
Jesus you died for my sins. You were crucified so that your righteousness would become mine. Through your death on the cross, I am righteous in the fathers eyes, when you died upon that across you defeated death. You showed the world that are you the way, the truth, and the light. You say that when a man loses his life he finds it. If God is for me/us who can be against me/us?
I need the gospel each day.
Psalms 46
God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
7 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Selah
8 Come and see the works of the LORD,
the desolations he has brought on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth;
he breaks the bow and shatters the spear,
he burns the shields [b] with fire.
10 "Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."
11 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Selah
There was no big problem today. Didn't do so well on last week's quiz in theater not the problem. I did another oil change tonight on the Corolla. Filter was almost impossible to take out. I used the hammer and the screw driver method and even though it allowed the filter to spin out 2-3 turns it was still not enough. We pretty much destroyed the filter by the time we got it out.
We had such a hard time getting it out, I kind of suspected something went wrong. I tried to put on the new filter but it did not want to go in. Took a look at the STUD that allows the filter to screw in and it looks messed up.
So right now the car cannot run because we cannot put oil in otherwise it would just leak out. What's the big problem? I need to be back at ISU by Sunday Morning 10am. I commute to school. Not a big deal, I can take the train back and have someone drive me to where I stay grab my stuff and stay with a friend on campus.
When I think about it it really is not that bad. Where it gets tough for me is that my parents are getting old. Money becomes an issue each day. They will not be happy that I screwed up something that needs to get fixed which will probably cost quite some money? I guess it really isn't that bad because it just means my parents are going to get fustrated at me. I am not going to die or anything....
Hmm. I am glad I am writing this through because it helps me think it through.
I must pray that God will provide a way. I must pray that these things will only make me cling to the cross and not uncling myself from the cross.
Jesus you died for my sins. You were crucified so that your righteousness would become mine. Through your death on the cross, I am righteous in the fathers eyes, when you died upon that across you defeated death. You showed the world that are you the way, the truth, and the light. You say that when a man loses his life he finds it. If God is for me/us who can be against me/us?
I need the gospel each day.
Psalms 46
God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
7 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Selah
8 Come and see the works of the LORD,
the desolations he has brought on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth;
he breaks the bow and shatters the spear,
he burns the shields [b] with fire.
10 "Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."
11 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Selah
Friday, October 2, 2009
Hello
Man it is getting tough now to post =(. Laziness wants me to stop writing.
Another woe is me moment. I feel exactly like the Israelites. God has done so many amazing things in my life. Alot of times I find myself saying only if I can experience God like the man with leprosy (today's reading was Matthew 8)
To be honest. I am still really worried about making the Nursing college or not here at ISU.
I am having a real hard time letting go.
I am even struggling with trusting Jesus with everything. Today's passage is really hitting me at the heart. Trusting that God is real and is in control. I don't know where my faith has gone. I remember when I was younger I felt like my faith was so much stronger than those who were older than me; however the battle definitely is not over. There are so many things I need to fight against with the Lord on my side. The battle is on.
No wonder God told Joshua
I now see why it is so important to memorize God's word. It is so important to preach the gospel to myself each day and to remember If God is for us, who can be against us?
Help me God.
Another woe is me moment. I feel exactly like the Israelites. God has done so many amazing things in my life. Alot of times I find myself saying only if I can experience God like the man with leprosy (today's reading was Matthew 8)
To be honest. I am still really worried about making the Nursing college or not here at ISU.
I am having a real hard time letting go.
I am even struggling with trusting Jesus with everything. Today's passage is really hitting me at the heart. Trusting that God is real and is in control. I don't know where my faith has gone. I remember when I was younger I felt like my faith was so much stronger than those who were older than me; however the battle definitely is not over. There are so many things I need to fight against with the Lord on my side. The battle is on.
No wonder God told Joshua
| Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. |
I now see why it is so important to memorize God's word. It is so important to preach the gospel to myself each day and to remember If God is for us, who can be against us?
Help me God.
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