Don't ever for even one second think that because God has his elects you are not one of them when you love Him and follow Him obediently! I fell into that trap. I fell into thinking what if I was just not cut out to be one of God's? I felt this way because school is disastrous at the moment. I am fighting to get a B in Anatomy and Nutrition I think. If I don't get the grades I cannot get into the major.(According to the stats) As these classes get harder I start to doubt God more because everyone else seems to be doing better and I seem to be doing worst. I am starting to think wow Does God just want me to drop out of college? Is he still even in charge of my life?
The thoughts just kept getting worst - to the point where I started even doubting if I was one of His own.
I started to just think about something that has been on my heart lately from Dr. Green's message about ”The Gracious Goel”. I've been realizing that God is surely the gracious goel who takes those who were once were strangers to himself and brings them into his own family. As long as I choose to want to follow Him He will not reject me.
Ruth was someone who was very foreign. Her people followed different gods. She had a change of heart when she told Naomi Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. 17 Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the LORD deal with me, be it ever so severely, if anything but death separates you and me.
This story gives me a sense of hope. God in his mercy does not reject her even though he has his own people. He does not need to be good enough. I am free to join his family when I want. Once I decide to join his family, he will never turn his back from me no matter how far I stray.
Internally I battle between wanting to leave him - at the same time my heart wants to keep going back to Him. I know he is there, but my faith is weak, it says to my mind maybe He really isn't enough to provide for me.
God help me to fight my flesh and to abandon my heart to follow you in spirit and in truth.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Little things of the bible
There are sooo many frigging cool things in the bible. One's that help us to obtain more grace and peace in our lives.. Alot of times we think that oh that is only because he was Elijah, Moses, Peter, Paul, David.......... that is/was why God did those such things in their lives.. I was blown away by this today.
2Pe 1:1 Simeon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who have obtained a faith of equal standing with ours by the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ:
2Pe 1:2 May grace and peace be multiplied to you in the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.
Peter says it right here. He is only a servant of Christ. He says in his letter, WE ALL IN CHRIST HAVE RECEIVED A EQUAL STANDING BY THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF Jesus. Jesus' blood makes us all on the same level. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW... That is NUTS!
This past week I was told that you need a balance in your life of how much time to spend with God. My heart did not feel right with that. It was someone in authority who said that to me. In my heart I wanted to lash out because I was told I cannot depend 100 percent on God for my joy and happiness... Peter says it right here! IT IS IN THE KNOWLEDGE OF OUR God and of our Lord Jesus we may obtain more grace and peace...
I think this means we NEED TO fight the good fight. Make sure we can spend time with God. SEEK HIM SEEK HIM SEEK HIM
2Pe 1:1 Simeon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who have obtained a faith of equal standing with ours by the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ:
2Pe 1:2 May grace and peace be multiplied to you in the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.
Peter says it right here. He is only a servant of Christ. He says in his letter, WE ALL IN CHRIST HAVE RECEIVED A EQUAL STANDING BY THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF Jesus. Jesus' blood makes us all on the same level. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW... That is NUTS!
This past week I was told that you need a balance in your life of how much time to spend with God. My heart did not feel right with that. It was someone in authority who said that to me. In my heart I wanted to lash out because I was told I cannot depend 100 percent on God for my joy and happiness... Peter says it right here! IT IS IN THE KNOWLEDGE OF OUR God and of our Lord Jesus we may obtain more grace and peace...
I think this means we NEED TO fight the good fight. Make sure we can spend time with God. SEEK HIM SEEK HIM SEEK HIM
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Back from hiatus
I may read 1 peter for a week and blog about it. Took up the idea from Francis Chan.
1 Pet 1:3
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy he has caused us to be born again into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead to an inheritance that is imperisable, undefiled, and unfading kept in heaven for you who by Gods power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
This is WONDERFUL. For the past 2 weeks, the time where I wasn't blogging I have been feeling so far from God. It felt that God was silent, but that wasn't the case. I was just texting God. I would lift up a few prayers to God but not making an effort to hear back from him - through his word..
If we look down on the Israelites - I am just as sinful as they were/are. God had brought them out the desert and God had carried them out of egypt with his mighty hand. They turned away from Him for idols. It has been what 40 days?
For me, God had been so good to me and yet within days I would turn to idols..
Why is this verse so great?
GOD KNEW I WAS GOING TO MESS UP. GOD CHOSE ME AND SAVED ME KNOWING I WOULD TURN AWAY FROM HIM. GOD STILL CHOSE TO GIVE ME SOMETHING THAT WOULD NEVER FADE. HIS GIFT OF LIFE. HIS SALVATION. THE KING OF KINGS, THE LORD OF LORDS - HE IS CRAZY ABOUT ME. HE DOES NOT CARE ABOUT MY FLAWS. HE STILL WILLING TOOK MY SHAME AND GUILT AWAY FROM ME.
HE IS GOOD.
1 Pet 1:3
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy he has caused us to be born again into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead to an inheritance that is imperisable, undefiled, and unfading kept in heaven for you who by Gods power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
This is WONDERFUL. For the past 2 weeks, the time where I wasn't blogging I have been feeling so far from God. It felt that God was silent, but that wasn't the case. I was just texting God. I would lift up a few prayers to God but not making an effort to hear back from him - through his word..
If we look down on the Israelites - I am just as sinful as they were/are. God had brought them out the desert and God had carried them out of egypt with his mighty hand. They turned away from Him for idols. It has been what 40 days?
For me, God had been so good to me and yet within days I would turn to idols..
Why is this verse so great?
GOD KNEW I WAS GOING TO MESS UP. GOD CHOSE ME AND SAVED ME KNOWING I WOULD TURN AWAY FROM HIM. GOD STILL CHOSE TO GIVE ME SOMETHING THAT WOULD NEVER FADE. HIS GIFT OF LIFE. HIS SALVATION. THE KING OF KINGS, THE LORD OF LORDS - HE IS CRAZY ABOUT ME. HE DOES NOT CARE ABOUT MY FLAWS. HE STILL WILLING TOOK MY SHAME AND GUILT AWAY FROM ME.
HE IS GOOD.
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